uff ye mohabbat!!

I could lie and tell her shez just a friend..or I could speak the truth..which i did..the result being another disaster!! She says im just a guilt for her .....im feeling like an overacting hero of a melodrama..shehh...im laughing when i shud cry or be angry....U shudn't thrust your emotions on others..honestly since a couple of days ive not been doin that..but if she wants a confession that i dont have emotions how could i say so...she needs a friend..and a lie could have helped...but if i lie to her the whole relationship would become so artificial..and shez one of sweetest truths of my life...that she now thinks im just an artificial person adds amother sarcastic arrow to my already sore heart..but god am i addcited to her...some guys would go ahead and make fun of this...but duded this is not schmaltzy sentimental foolish stuff..this is how badly i need her and how desperately i love and life's all about that!!