numb..

Couple of days have gone by...they were strange...such discord between my exterior and interior...on the surface i was so good...laughing all day...Ramya was so surprised....but she guessed it....but she wudn't know that this is such a permanent change..this strange numbness thats seeping through my system....this weird way of laughing at every silly thing and yet knowing the absence of peace....In a sense Im happy but not peaceful...As i walk through the corridors of my hostel there's a strange mist over me...everything sounds so distant..so alien..or may b I am the alien here...Is this called living in a dream world? Is this building castles in the air...well..I guess it is not.... for the people I have loved are real..and so is my love..Some are happy without me and some with me...but nothing after She left that night seems very substantial or significant....mayb life would start breathing again...but till then its such a pain in the ass to wait for it to resurrect itself!!