demotions!!

I wonder what hurts the most? someone's indifference..or someone's departure...and if it does hurt...why?KurtKobain wrote in his suicide note.."Its better to burn out than fade away.."Is this true? mayb our personal egos r so high we just cant accept the fact that we r no longer as adorable to the ones whose opinions we care for as we were at one point of time.....i guess the fall from "best frnd to good frnd" is far more painful and intense than the rise to being somone'e best frnd..a part of us is always stubborn and doesn't let us get away and get moving...after all however special our loved ones might be , there r always others waiting to be discovered.....per there's a strange feeling pricking me...its a sense of isolation, dejection and mayb helplessness....if ur loved one dropped u what satisfaction is there in being loved by someone else..after all that person might as well drop u sooner or later...which brings us back to our personal ego and qualms....."Am i wrong?"....and when we dont find the answer to this question, our demotions taunt us all the more..to the extent that we reach a state of numbness...guess thats what is gonna happen to me....i wonder if im capable of loving someone ever again...or feeling secure abt any relationship ever again....after all the more someone knows me the more the chance of me being disliked...bcoz try as we may, dishonesty floats on our skins...and it takes time to know someones true self..so someone liking me today might realise im dishonest some other day and if thats the doom of a relationship....im scared of this world..of frnds.of relations..of falling in love..."every phase is transient?" Lord Krishna said it in Bhagwad Gita.."This too shall pass away"...but if this is its translation....being lonely is less painful if not more fun......