First fortnight in a distant land..sounds poetic isn't it? but it is very painful..i had a nice bath...cooked my lunch..sitting on the internet in a towel..isn't that an ideal sunday???but im dying with guilt.....for having " wasted my weekend"..yes..thats the state of affairs..there is so much to do during the weekdays that if you dont do anything fruitful on ur weekends u ve failed to manage ur time..and i know its a pity...but yeah there is so much to look around and explore...and life has become a race.."there is no time to stand and stare"..uufffhh..see i cant even recollect the lines properly...there is a deep prayer that these 3 months get over in a blink..dunno if its fear of workload here...or my homesickness.or just the fact that im out of my comfortzone and also out of my sync with friends i dunno....mayb ill get used to this and feel reluctant to go back 3 months from now only time will tell...but as quoted in a movie.ur happiness and success have value only if ur with ur near and dear ones to share...i feel guilt everytime i see something beautiful bcoz i wanna show that to my dad and mom as well...i miss mygood frnds...i miss Princess..miss my God...everyone...and sometimes all this looks so senseles..and life so purposeless...all for a rat race to get to the top of the corporate ladder..who cares a shit....money has left us with no time to pursue art....bcoz art doesn;t feed..art doesn;t get u ipods and cameras and laptops..art doesn;t make ur parents happy..art doesn;t get women either....hehe...but if i look inwards im missing my soul as well..and thats one thing that art gets u and money doesn;t....wish i could lie down on the grass on a sunday listening to music and readin a novel...aah...see the interconnection of life, money and peace??
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