A Sin?

I went out with SH today....My mood was pretty good..we went to my sis's house....somewhere down the talk my jokes actually got serious and I actually enjoyed hurting her...this moment i m hating myself for doing it but that strong urge to make her realize how wrong she had been some of the times and how much she had hurt me at different points of time somehow took over me....wish I could get those moments back..after all when u care for someone and u dont get back what u exactly expect u have two choices...u can continue being wht u r or u can stop caring as well..i guess the first option is a difficult path to tread but that is what we should try doing ..after all its a privilege we r gifting to the people we love so much...so what if we are unlucky enough not to get it back the way we had wanted to or expect to, but at the end of the day our love for someone is at its flamboyant best when u r showing it with a song playing in the background.."teri aankhon ka jadoo poori duniya pe hai....duniya ki is bheed main sabse peeche ham khade.."..its great if u get something back...fine if u dont...life moves on...like the song in the background...