I am going through a transitional phase...loads of time to think...sometimes i feel i should close all shutters down and just be alone..enjoy my own company..the fear of faling in love and pain at the same time haunts me...at other times i fel ashamed of this fear...Ashish would get angry too.he believes in believeing and thanx to offlat3e even I have started believeing..and I am putting it to application in my own house to some success...dad ke saath ocasional jhagde tho phir bhi hothe hain...i feel disappointed sometimes bcoz the pat on the back which i want from dad never really comes to me..dad loves putting me down..i really dont know why...is it because he doesn't really likeme getting beter than him...or is it because he doesn't want me to become arrogant with everyone around praising me..?? he loves me no doubt about that but i dont really understand why is he behaving so strangely..like a distant person..he doesn't approve of anything i do..anything i am...kya kareing..but he is good and to a large extent he is contributed to whatever good there is in me...sooner or later i feel this thing would be solved..i wil become more mature and may be dad to.hehe.. till then may be i ll try to hold my tempers down and stop myself...i have become a beter person and a better son offlate..thanx to the various relationships i have had over the past year....that is the advantage of meeting and interacting with sensible and thinking people....
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Hey mr stupid......dont ever think that dad doesnt really like u gettin better than him....i bet he wud b one of the first persons 2 feel happy if u wud be a better person, if u get an appraisal....let me tell u thinkin with my small brain...he behaves like that coz he doesnt want u 2 becum careless or proud...u r always a kid 2 him naa...my mom says that way 2 me....no straight appreciation b4 the "candidate"....
that wud spoil him......ur dad must be praisin u b4 his frnds n collegues 2 such an extent that they all mite get Jealous[;)]....btw one small doubt does that relationships over past one year include me??;)or only ur gang?
itna tension mat le...jab bhi life main problem ho toh remix suno...hehe!!!!...things are gonna be fine....they have to be anyways..."bas rahe yakeen yeh tumko,khusiyon ko TOH hain aana..."...tc!!!
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