Rock on...

Rock on..it has a strange and " they succeeded in whatever they always loved to do" ending...it suits the Indian audiences who want to go back to their mundane lives feeling good and happy....but the movie had a theme I really loved.....like the monster.com ad which shows a ballet dancer with split legs stuck in between men on a foosball table..sometimes we do things we dont love , we embark upon a journey we suppose would help us reach that point of salvation we yearn for. But we lose ourselves in a strange maze where we are no longer working to lay steps towards that unseen heaven but to avoid thinking or feeling.....its like a strange circle where we end up nowhere though we all have a purpose when we start.. rock on reminds you to avoid exactly that...it just shows how peace and happiness for everyone lies in that one thing we love losing ourselves in, that one special thing which gets our devotion and dedication , which is not imposed upon us, but picked by our own choice..
finding that one special thing is not difficult...to me the courage to let go in a way (meaning not to go by the flow), to come out of the security of a cosy comfortable life doing something mundane, to me that is to really rock in life..

Poetry..

As the silvery flood kisses the hem of the night,
and dew beckons velvety petals in enchanted slumber
i touch her form, wrapped in winsome enigma
enticing slivers from the sky to pierce the haze,
As Misty tree-tops wistfully overlook the grass,
that tingles her bare feet,
And dawn trickles through the woods in lazy dalliance
i see shining sparkles coalesce into an array of colours,
and an iris crowning her forehead in tender submission,
As Slender palms awaken blissful buds from reverie,
and the gentle wind is entranced in her mystic fragrance
i hear the cadence of her angelic hymn,
sprinkling melliflous notes over a lazy ambience
The universe stirs around her to find its broken strings,
and discovers the words buried under ages of dust,
i taste the elixir from her tender lips
mesmerising the senses of an earthly ilk

How i wish to find myself in her heavenly embrace,
and witness the bloom that spring had promised..

Is this happiness in literal sense?

Amazing how a few words from someone could make such a difference...all i could say is it made me happy....something which is really precious ...these days....and one sentence in particular,said about my manager..."do u care for ur manager more than all the people u love?if not how could he ever make you sad"...this added such a different perspective to my thought...true isn't it? nothing should matter more to us than our loved ones..so how could someone make us sad?yeah may be sometimes loved ones make us sad as well but atleast its better than some f***** affecting your mood...sometimes someone just carries you over the shit that's around us....over the hills, into some distant place where u could hear the wind sing into your ears...and listen to the echo of your heart beats...life sometimes seems really beautiful....

Wonder when !!

Broken shards of glass still lay scattered over the floor,
wonder when the last drops of blood dried up,
Ancient vases of jaded hues still adorn the corners,
wonder when the cobwebs claimed the last vestiges of life,
Yellowed papers flutter in effortless noise,
Wonder when the words were stripped of their essence,
A few lopsided paintings cling onto the walls,
Wonder when the winds washed away the colours,
A few candles flowed to immortality on dusty floors,
Wonder when the flame split into a zillion fragments,
Some strings still dance to distant tunes,
wonder when silence composed its first symphony,
Shafts of light suffuse the gloomy ambience,
wonder when dawn was embraced with open arms,
A tiny cage creaks in the gentle wind,
wonder when the tempest broke the mesh open,
The azure sky is bespeckled today with shiny wings,
Wonder when the first drops of breath satiated the soul !

Where art thou??

Princess, its not that I am missing You badly, just that every now and then a memory touches the hem of my thoughts like a sudden gust of wind and leaves me off balanced wondering what makes me hope and wait all the time...U said U were like a child learning isn;t it?then who am I? do I have the comfort of knowing somone wont abandon me at any cost , at any stage for any reason?Please talk to me...

Love You

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Missing You a lot Princess...

I am here

Did u know Princess, that it is difficult to fall in love...because it is difficult to allow someone to hurt you and then tell her/him that "yes! this is how badly i wanted to be hurt all my life...just to realise ive a heart...just to realise that it lives.."..
Did U know Princess, how Ur own words mock You when U realise that at times someone U consider special refuses to look at the magic they create?
Did U know Princess, how our heart keeps fluttering all the time flower to flower just to find the one petal that soothes its emotions ..and how it aches to know.. that flower was never meant for You?
Did U know Princess that something that will make U cry now at some other point just seems to be an illusion created to deceive You...bcoz its just the way we perceive things.
Did U know Princess that its just the beauty of our thought that splashes all around us...its just the naked truth of our existence that makes this world..because the only purpose why the world was made is to give U company...
Did U know Princess,that the universe that seems so enormous can be changed to fit Ur thoughts , Ur words, Ur perceptions..because it exists only within U...
Did U know Princess, that the only thing we could love is ourself...and everything that gives us happiness becomes dear to us..and so its beyond us to walk away from anything we love...because U cannot walk away from Urself..and U hence cannot walk away from anything that makes U happy....

Ur birthday mail...

Princess,
the diamond U see in the photo is called the Hope diamond..i took these photos in US....DO U know whom I was thinking about when I was taking these photos?Khush rehna Pricess...mujhe patha hai Tum rahogi...all i want to say is when U r faced with situations where U are searching for a reason U dont have to explain to Urself that Tumhe khush rehna hai..all U need to think is that U r a good person, and happiness is the only state U deserve....Looking back so many things have changed since Ur last birthday...i have been through so much offlate that I wonder if I could ever attain the kind of thinking i had back in college...but irrespective of that there is one thing that remains the same and will...and that is the fact that being loved by someone , being missed by someone, being made to feel special by someone is always something we live for and crave for...i dunno how lucky I am ..but I love You and I miss talking to U...i am not saying this to tell You that i am doing You a favour or trying to make U happy ...its just a basic truth which would may be sometime, get covered by old leaves and dust, but would always stay...unchanged because the part of my life which U made so beautiful with Ur presence, when there were not many reasons to smile or feel happy about...will always be special..and I would always crave for days like that...always...I had ideally like to sing that song myself but i dont have a mike and i have to find out a few things about recording...i dont have the patience to sort those things out now..but trust me my promise is still on my mind...main hamesha promises nahin todtha Princess..bas kabhi kabhi galthi ho jaathi hai....Love You...

NorthernSky-Nick Drake

I never felt magic crazy as this
I never saw moons knew the meaning of the sea
I never held emotion in the palm of my hand
Or felt sweet breezes in the top of a tree
But now you're here
Brighten my northern sky.

It's been a long time that I'm waiting
Been a long time that I'm blown
been a long time that I've wandered
Through the people I have known
Oh, if you would and you could
Straighten my new mind's eye.

Would you love me for my money
Would you love me for my head
Would you love me through the winter
Would you love me 'til I'm dead
Oh, if you would and you could
Come blow your horn on high.

I never felt magic crazy as this
I never saw moons knew the meaning of the sea
I never held emotion in the palm of my hand
Or felt sweet breezes in the top of a tree
But now you're here
Brighten my northern sky.

Dialogues of the day.....

Dialogues of the day:
"dark pe dark circles nahin dikhthe.."
I ll try to trust You"...
im smiling Princess..i still love You..ehsaan nahin ker raha ...but i feel its a good reason for You to feel happy...not that You dont have now ..but one more to the list...

Missing U

Formality ke liye thodi na koi kisiko miss kertha hai....yeh nahin keh raha ki hamesha miss kertha hoon Princess...weekdays main bohottt kaam hotha hai...weekends pe yehan wehan ghoomne chale jaatha hoon..per kabhi kabhi yunhi Aap yaad aajathi ho...Aapse ki hui baatein yaad aajathi hain..aisa lagtha hai kahin kuch kho gaya..nahin na?sab theek haina...Tum yehi hona?mere paas? I love You a lotttttttttttttttttttttt and always will..kabhi kabhi Tumpe gussa aatha hai..par kya keroon?kuch keh nahin paatha...aur jab Tum aise kam kam baath kerthi ho..maang bhi nahin paatha..

metro...

chupake se kahin, dheeme paanv se
jaane kis taraf, kis ghadi
aage badh gaye hamse raahon mein
par tum toh abhi the yahin
kuchh bhi na suna, kab ka tha gila
kaise keh diya alvida

Very few movies could make you laugh and cry at the same time..this was one of them..it talks about a suffocation we all feel but cannot locate....the only difference is that the director felt one should stand on the terrace and scream..i feel like standing in the middle of the road and screaming....only it is less possible....Dharmendra talking about the mistake he made 40 years back....atleast he could spend some time with her...for all of us who would die thirsting for a few such moments his situation is still so enviable..isn't it?a collage of intricate relationships beautifully woven Metro reminds us of the grand tragedy of life...that when we are chasing love there are other worries u need to sort out first and by the time you sort them out love disappears out of sight...Shiney Ahuja saying ,"love left us" is a classic statement symbolising relationships involving compromise at some point or other..i was talking yday to a friend of mine who felt career sometimes comes in the way of love and you cant just let it go for love...sounded practical..but im still not in that situation..but ideally relationships involving compromise for security and stability sooner or later end..or fade out...which is very painful...may be im wrong..may be people around actually are more concerned about careers, flats, cars and stuff....hehe..i wudn't know...its a very simplistic way of showing a complicated mess..the phone calls people do to adjust times for their physical affairs was a mockery of the whole society...i just hope it was an exaggeration (funny..wonder why the only relationship which had some love ended up as a tragedy) ...if its even half true, this is a horrific world that gives me shivers...all in all it talks about a society materialistically driven ...where love finds a plethora of obstacles and where emotions count for nothing....where beings are more worried about finding flats for their affairs than their families, where everyone is cheating upon someone else...not realising that cheating like charity starts at home..in this case urself...

Missing You...

Missing U Princess....Tumse dil khol ke baath kerne ka mann ker raha hai ...yeh batane ka man ker raha hai that Im still the same krish U used to write long mails to..and talk for hours..ab Tum kehthi ho Tumhe baath kerne ka bhi mann nahin ker raha hai..hehhe..its ok...I Love You..and I am so happy U r so sensitive to everything I am and do..isi blog pe bohotttt pehle ek baar likha tha.... ki i know how it feels like to wait for Her to talk to me..and when She does it wud be bliss..hehe..back to square one...Love You..as usual..